JTB: Get Me To The Start
" Cause sometimes you just feel tired and weak and when you feel weak you feel like you just want to give up.... but you gotta reach within you to find that inner strength and get that motivation to not give up ... to not be a quitter no matter how bad you just want to fall flat on your face and collapse ." Race week . It is perhaps the hardest season to start... because I know it is without you... and I know without you is now my forever in everything I do...I suppose this is the last big thing I have to do without you.... and I miss you.... I am not a good racer. My head is never in the right place... full of fear and doubt and knowing.... what's coming. IT HURTS. Getting to the start line has always been hard. Since this last November, it has been nearly impossible. For so long, I was in so much pain that the thought of racing.... no way... my blanket was too comforting at 6am to even thing about moving.... about doing that thing that burns my legs and make...