Little Red Running Hood

Miles: 70 They say… we are never really "ready"…..if you wait until you are "ready"…. you may be waiting for the rest of your life…..lucky for me… it turned out "now" was as good a time as any….. to be….."ready". There is a local athlete I have admired for a long time… a local runner who came in 2nd in the carmel half marathon 2 years ago, named Karen Frederick. She writes an amazing blog…I love reading other runner's blogs….. you know to find out how they became so awesome… in hope that it may rub off on me…. today I read this and I am more than impressed….. more than inspired….."Therefore I am done….. Done with worry, and breath holding, and dark cloud gazing… I refuse to live in fear of any more pain in any area of my life. If it wants to find me, it will, but lord help me if it finds me cowering in a corner…. NO.  It will find me Brave." I look at this statement…. I think about the pain that others go through, unbeknowns...

Miles 0  OF ALL THE CRZAY NEUROTIC CAN WE JUST ADD AN EXTRA MILE NUMBERS TO END MY YEAR WITH! 1199miles.   That is about the worst thing ever when you are neurotic and crazy…. remembering I have 2 injuries in this number and countless mile attempts I did not add in…. 1199 it is…. Two weeks ago … ..OMG it's cold.  And the thing is, it's not even cold…. 45 is pretty good for an Indiana December…. but I hate to run in the cold…. it's dreary and overcast and by the time I get out there….. it will be dark.  AND I will be running alone. I want to stay home.  This is treadmill weather…… my treadmill is so warm and inviting…. BUT if I fall to the cold…. there is NO WAY I will ever rise to the occasion this spring…. and the goals are too big….. they require more than I have ever done before….. to accomplish my new goals I will have to repeatedly work outside of my comfort zone… and right now that comfort zone is getting out in weather I hate….. if I spend all...

Miles 40 So, milage looks off to a good start… it's going well… some 9s, mostly in the 8:40 range….just having fun getting back to it, enjoying training. But, oh wait…. it sucks. Sadness is having your favorite thing in the world suddenly seem hard and undoable…. healthy….CHECK…. uninjured…..CHECK…. decent mile times….CHECK….. keeping up with the milage increase CHECK…. so WHY is it so hard…. it's kind of cold…. it's dark…. my friends are gone…. The run coach introduced me to another runner to help me…. she very coldly shut me out… even though her name wasn't winter… and she ran so fast that I am not even sure if she was showing off or if maybe I smelled.  Seriously run group has become the reindeer game and I am Rudolf…. glowing red nose from the cold and all…. and oh yeah I am not guiding the sleigh, I am so far behind it I can't even see it…. and my super cool attractive headlamp really could be a glowing nose….how did this happen… I like rock paper scisso...