Little Red Running Hood

The funny thing about running... or any intense exercise.... it is like all logic is gone... wait I've run how many miles and how many more equal 10 and if I am at 5.74 and I turn around how much is left in what direction..... OR... wait so the bar weighs.... and I have how many plates and wait what number am I on and how many does that mean I have left.... On an average day... I am pretty good at math.... but when I am mid run or mid work out I am not sure i could even tell you my name.... never mind 2+2.  Thankfully as fitness enthusiasts and runners.... we are also obsessive planners.... so we have that mapped out and ready to go.... if you are like me you may even have  few contingency plans... just in case plan A starts to go awry... how do I not have contingency life plans where relationships are concerned?? I thought of so many memories today.  My Dad's funeral service was so beautiful and full of love.... the bagpipes were playing Amazing Grace.... The...

My Dad died early Wed morning.  I remember him saying how great is was to be alive, to be able to look at the sky.  No matter the season or day, just being able to look up and see the sky and be alive. It feels really unfair to watch people you love so much suffer. It has been a really really hard few months. A little over a week ago I discovered the person I had invested the last 5 years with was basically living a double life. I remember faithful was my biggest request, it seems surreal that a best friend, person I loved, shared so much with, was just a fallacy... a lie... a 5 year lie.  The whole time.... I am blown away by this and still trying to get it right in my head, how someone lies and hurts and deceives others in such a way. It can be over, but the fucking mess still needs to be cleaned up. You know, the mess this person made in my life, my head, my heart. I feel like the past few weeks have been a dream. A nightmare actually. I can honestly say right...